Day 2

Its been 24 hours without a word from you. I really hope you're doing fine. Cos honestly I'm not.I'm still trying to sink it in. The fact that I've lost you. My pillar of strength. My best friend. I won't say I'm lost. Well, not yet. Here I am trying to be strong for myself. But i knew this would happen. I asked for it. I need to find myself again.

I really hope you're handling this shit alright. Tomorrow will be your first book in without me. I wonder how will it feel like for you, How different would it be? I'm sorry. That's all  can say. Frankly speaking, I miss you. But this would be for the best. I don't know why. But somehow, I'm waiting for your text. But at the same time, I don't know how I would react if you were to text me. Will I reply? Or otherwise?

I just hope you're okay. Alright, no. I don't want you to be okay. I want you to miss me too. But I know you'll be feeling way worse than me. I'm sorry. Maybe I just need time. We both need time.

I know I'm being selfish. And I know you don't deserve this. Chase me again in the future, will you? Then we can fall in love all over again and I'll never let you go. I'm so demanding. But maybe, you'll find someone new. Someone who can love you more than I did. Someone who can make you happier. Someone, in other words,, better. You deserve so much more. That is a truth.

I miss you. I know you miss me too. We will pull through this ordeal,okay? Maybe we will be stronger after this. But you must know, I love you. Very very much.