FML

Its been crazy  long since i posted a proper post. What to do, the com isn't fixed and I want a laptop so badly just for my own use and what more PW project. Using the school laptop now. Was supposed to do PW but here I am blogging and not focusing on my main aim.

Time flies when you're having fun and we're in March already. Chunny's and Jaslyn's birthday had  already passed. Happy birthday to my dearest girls who have always been there for me (: Love you two dearly. Best Best buds ever.

Being in JC life is completely a 180degree change from secondary school life. Honestly, I'm starting to wonder what the hell am I doing in JC. I mean, to stress and allow myself to have so much homework and its so much worse than O levels. And cmon, my A's will be next year and the mugging has already started. I see other students working so hard and are studious. What about me ? I know I'm not working hard enough. The drive for me to study or even just to complete my homework just isn't there. Example, now its my free period. My classmates are all beside me doing their GP essay and I'm posting an entry. I know I'm in the wrong but if I just study for the sake of studying, it doesn't really get in my head. Instead, I'll just remember it for that moment and the next moment, POOF. The info is gone. Ok la, not the next moment but at least, a day or so.  Sometimes when I get so frustrated cos I can't solve a maths question or I can't start nor complete my History/Econs/GP essay, I'll start asking myself, "Why did I sign up for this shit?"

I need motivations and inspirations aye ? I need to adapt and change. But I've got to tell you. It ain't easy. I'm really trying to study at least 2 hours every single day. So far it been working but it made me grew tired and lethargy during lessons. Especially during the dry lectures or tutorials. Within 10min, I could be dozing off cos I'm really feeling that tired. And guess what, its only the first week of term 2. My new timetable this term is like crappy. The earliest lesson I end is 5 pm and that  is not inclusive of my CCA practice.

Another question that is bugging me is, " WHY THE F DID I AGREE TO HELP OUT GUZHENG FOR SYF???" I swear, CCA takes up a lot of my time. Why ? Cos SYF. Gotta work hard to clinch the Gold Award. Tiring you know JC life. And cos of guzheng, I'm missing so much in Touch Rug. Oh well, this is what I have to deal with. I hope I can catch up in touch rug and make the cut for the team. But luckily my school ain't that much of a distance so, I feel lucky to have a  school nearby.

And with PW starting, I foresee late nights in school and drainage of energy.

However, I'm thankful the people around in SR. They are so friendly and fun to hang out with. Cheering you up, making you laugh etc. So all these shitty curriculum are made better with the presence of the people in it.
Love them .

Thus, VOILA! This is my life.

P/S I'll really really do my best to upload pix when I can. Cos I feel that my blog is too boring.