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& MY DEAR IS BACK ((((:

He said he has a surprise for me. Might be meeting him later. Didn't manage to fetch you. Sorry dear. I really wanted .

I'm in school now for a so called workshop. Meeting him later (((:

Hahah, will edit more later ;D

Editted at 10.52pm.

So aft my workshop thingy in school had lunch at opp sch and off to meet him ((: He bought me a teddy bear from Hong Kong (: hahah, sweetness :D
Then talk talk talk, how was hong kong? bla bla bla.
Miss you alot dear (: Sweet moments.

I saw my so unglam photos in his phone and deleted some. So he pretended to be angry and closed his eyes, folded his arms and leaned against the wall. So called sleeping ... I had a hard time 'waking him up'. You were just playing around then. You played like shoving me off and it was quite obvious that all was just pretence.
Syg, I'm sorry to have mentioned Liping's name and I knew you were quite pissed when I said her. After that, when I tried 'waking you up' again, you shoved me off pretty hard. And somehow deep down my heart dropped. Tears welled and I don't know why I was feeling quite bad inside. I then turned around pretending that I gave up'waking you up' by sending songs from your phone to mine. But actually I was just wiping the tears which was just flowing down my cheeks. I turned around and asked you some questions and your reply was "Go and ask Eugene."
I put my hand at your shoulder and you shoved me off even harder this time. I grabbed you and you kept saying that sentence. I tried laughing to cover up my tears. But your eyes were half closed and I guess you saw nothing. Then I said,
"Oh okay then, I shall think that you are Eugene. But you are Aidil but oh well.."
You replied: "I'm not Eugene. I'm Aidil for goodness sake *snorted & grunted*
And you shove my hand off you once more. It was the hardest of all...
After that, my heart sank down really low. I felt really down. My heart dropped like hell when you said that. I just couldn't understand why you did such actions. Even if you are angry with me, I don't mind you not talking but not the shoving off part. I was really somehow crying at that point of time. I turned the other way and played with my phone again. I didn't want to face you cos I was tearing by then. I knew you were looking from behind. Soon after you fell asleep. I tried being nice to you. Your answers were all so cold and reluctant. I didn't wna cry infront of you so I just smiled. Whenever you closed your eyes, & I looked at you, you will open half of your eyes and look at me then close your eyes again and folding your arms even tighter. Did you know that you hurt me so badly by that time? You did these twice. I was sitting in between your legs & you just had to stand up, brush the dust from your pants and sat at the corner leaving me there. ( It wasn't really a distance. Just about 30com? but yeah) You folded your arms again and slept at the corner. I had nothing to say so I p[layed with my phone ans stared at you. You looked at me and closed your eyes again. I didn't know what else to do so I just lrest my head at your shoulder and ringed my right hand around arm and holding the pendant to the nexklace you gave me. Soon after, I felt asleep and woke up a few times to your suddent movement. But somehow, the last part, I wasnt really asleep instead the memory of you shoving off kept repeating in my mind. You started moving round again but I ignored you. Then I think you were like punching the wall with the other hand & that was a really sudden move and I was falling off your shoulder and you caught me. I woked up and you send me home.

By then, I don't understand what you were thinking as I really don't know what was going on. You were suddenly so nice to me after what happened and I didn't bother to ask further. I won't ask you any other questions regarding this unless you ask first. But I doubt you will. We seemed okay when going back. When I reached home, I cried. The part whereby you shoved me off real hard was seriously playing in my mind like a spoilt tape recorder. I was hoping for an sms from you to apoligise but you never did... Well I guess, you didn't take this matter seriously. But dear, I did and it had a very deep impact on me. I don't know why but when I think about it, I ask myself. I am thinking too much ? Am I really in the wrong? Am I suppose to apologise?
Syg, I doubt you will be reading this as your com is spoilt. Currently, I'm waiting for your sms. I purposely connected my phone to the com so that when I turn it on later all the sms I receive will be at once. But guess what? You did not. Instead, I receive messages from other ppl. I may be sensitive but seriously,who wont?
I'm really sorry for whatever I've done but I sometimes, I just wish for you to be more understanding, caring and especially more sensitive to my feelings. Thats just all I ask for now ..

I'm feeling better now after typing (:
In anycase, I still do love you deeply<3